I’m a Princess Programmer

I’ve been programming professionally for eight years now.  Something I encountered early on was the non-programmer business professional’s appraisal that programmers are “princesses”.  I always bridled at that, but now I identify.

I actually don’t have the time to write a pretty blog post.  I never do anymore.  Nevertheless, I’ll just say that being a “princess programmer” isn’t necessarily a bad thing.  The very thing that makes a programmer a “princess” is the very thing that makes them good.

For instance, I realized, I don’t like to program without 4 monitors, 3 of which must be in portrait mode.  Also, I require a mechanical keyboard with at least two mice, left and right, at least one of which is a Logitech smooth scroller.  I prefer my keyboard to be “10 keyless” (no numpad).  I also have expectations about the speed of my computer and my graphics card and the updatedness of the programs I use to program programs.

I am a princess programmer.

But… I am also absurdly effective.  I’m worth two of me.  I am good at developing workflows, yours and mine.  I have workflows that I use to develop your workflows.  I develop workflows at levels of detail that bring you to tears.  I develop workflows at the level of my workflow-building tools.

Understandably, my tools are important to me.  My various hammers beat out your various hammers.

Call us princesses.  Call us soldiers.  You can’t win your war without us.  Don’t complain about how sharp we’ve become accustomed to our swords being when you expect us to cut through iron.

Yoga is

He-who-shall-soon-make-a-fool-of-himself-but-for-now-has-a-handle-on-things says: “hi”.

Yoga is basically and fundamentally about melting the obstacles to a healthy maturation.  Individuation.  Growth.  Unfolding.  Blossoming.  Ing.

It’s hard to express – but try to imagine the most pure expression of school.

A place reserved for teaching and learning what needs to be known and practiced for the achievement of your values in consideration of the objective rules and requirements of our Reality.

School merged with playground

Curiosity and Joy.

Deeper.

There’s something sly to curiosity

questing beyond joy

questioning felt values

harvesting dissatisfaction.

Spiral progressions

through value-space:

a core conflict

enjoying undermining

coalesces through crumbling

Asana is an opportunity to practice moving w/ structural integrity in a breath-united way.  It’s a practice of bringing one’s parts together – as on the mat, so in life.  There’s a strong element of becoming comfortable with oneself – finding cosmic confidence to project one’s desires and perspectives into the world of others.  Learning to flow with one’s own nature, posturally and experientially, in the midst of other natures.  But also of destroying one’s habits.  Destroying complacencies.

Yoga is more fundamental than martial arts because it directly attacks the unreal aspects of one’s life.  Martial arts is an extension of this approach to others.

Considered from a slightly translated perspective, yoga is about the shape of our inner space (inner determiner of our conformation) and martial arts are about the shape of space around oneself (external shapes we have to fit into).

I think of the layers of structure of a protein.  Primary through Quaternary structure.

Yoga is about surviving the self while the martial arts are about surviving the other.

Seeing beyond the self to the Self.

The two together represent human attending to what presents itself: reality as it is: self and other.

Silicon Valley Episode Eight is a big Huh

I just watched the latest episode of silicon valley, episode eight. Holy technical huh. So, somehow, a tequila bottle on a delete key during an ftp file transfer btw a startup and an established company resulted in the irretrievable deletion of hundred of hours of video that itself would have been deleted more slowly with a different video compression algorithm.  and what about the other sys admin being unable to do anything? it’s like the technical staff went to a party 💃

Structural Integrity

There seems to be two ways of thinking about structural integrity:

  • motionless (standing still)
  • in motion.

Really, I consider them to be one.  Motionlessness isn’t really possible except maybe approximately (cells vibrate) while holding the breath and the heartbeat.  In fact, trying to maintain structural integrity and motionlessness amounts to seemingly contradictory effort.  Motionlessness robs the intention of the regulating inputs needed to bring it about.  In that sense, motionless integrity is only approachable as a limit.  A crystallized summum bonum.

Structural integrity in motion can be looked at from at least these two perspectives:

  • in the vacuum of physical forces
  • in the context of the person’s values and choices

Let us consider the way we pick up our child.  The idea of structural integrity in lifting relatively heavy objects is pretty clear.  What we want to do is lift in such a way that the resistance to doing so is distributed equally throughout the body.  We don’t want, for example, a style of bending over at the hips and lifting by tightening the muscles of the back and hamstrings because this just focuses the weight in our lower backs, creating shearing forces that can cause ‘slipped discs’.  Rather, we could bend with our legs, keeping our back upright, and then stand again using our legs to lift the weight.  Or et cetera.

But what does all that have to do with our relationship with our child?  Nothing almost everyone would say.  It’s a description in the vacuum of physical forces.  I differ.  I think the way in which we do things reveals our relationship to those things, or the category we’ve lumped those things into at the moment (everything shifts over time, sometimes in patterned, seasonal ways, sometimes moment by moment).

The way that I see it, our motions are animated by purposes.  But the way we express those purposes are colored by attitudes.  These attitudes decorate our motions.  Both can be pieced out, like dimensions of a sound.  I used the example of picking up our child because it is a pregnant image.  ‘Child’ can be anything we value and ‘picking up’ can be any kind of engagement.  How do we approach moving from that which we are engaged to that which we are about to engage?

Structural integrity, I have found, has less to do with the conditions right now than the conditions a moment ago.  The best way to be in a good posture is to be conscious of the way you move into the space you are about to occupy.  IOW, have good posture by consciously avoiding bad posture.  We do that by noticing the tiny little conscious decisions and reactions that go into each and every aspect of how our bodies are moving.

What is our attitude, really, towards how we are required to hold our bodies up against gravity?  Remember to tease apart the attitude from the purpose we’re expressing.  We may fulfill the same demand in very different ways depending on our mood at the time.  How do you open the refrigerator?  How do you apply the force necessary?  Do you apply too little and your hand slips and you have to try again?  Do you apply too much, making lots of noise and causing the whole unit to bump and shift?  Do you explore what just enough is?

In any case, whether or not it’s ‘true’, I consider it to be skillful means, or Upaya.  Practiced, it certainly has the power to change our relationship to our values and engage our conscious minds with our bodies as we move in our spaces and our lives.